I dont frequent Deviant Art as alot of you probably know, but I thought I would share this sad news with the community. I was invited here by my friend Dean, who told me to come over here saying how nice of a place it was after he joined.
Well I was awaked to a very sad call today, and when I say sad I mean really (excuse my English) really fucking sad. My mom woke me up at 7:30 before school, she told me that Dean's mom had called and I asked her why and then she put her hand on my shoulder and said "I dont know how to tell you this, but your friend Dean died a couple of days ago". I wasnt really awake at the time, but when she said the words "dean died" I nearly flew out of my bed and started crying. I asked her how, and my mom said "very tragically," then she paused and said ".. he killed himself using his dad's shotgun" her saying that made me cry even MORE I went absolutely fucking histaric. As the day went on, I asked a few of my other friends, who were also friends with Dean. I asked them if they had heard anything else. Some of them didn't know it was a suicide, so unfortunately I had to break that news to them. Others people like my friend Ryan heard that not only had Dean killed himself but he also left a 3-paged suicide note and Ryan was told that the note contained something like "i cant find happiness in the real world so i tried finding some online friends at different online communitys - but everyone ditched me there too, i guess it seems like everyone hates me no matter where the hell i go". I dont know if Dean was liked on Deviant Art or how many friends (if any) he made here but I guess he thought no matter where he went - online or the internet, friends were an impossibility for him. I dont know why Dean just didn't talk to me, HE COULD HAVE TOLD ME HIS PROBLEMS! But he didnt! I DIDNT EVEN KNOW HE WAS SUICIDAL! How was I supposed to save him from killing himself? God I cant believe my best friend shot himself, especially over the fact that he couldnt find friends physically or electronically, I was his friend and he always seemed happy to me. He could have told me his problems, but he always seemed happy and fine instead. Why did Dean have to do this? Well, I guess his funeral is going to be this Saturday - its a private one (due to the tragic circumstances) so if anyone here lives in the Seattle area where I (and Dean used to now I guess) live you may or may not see his obituary in the paper (just look for Dean aged 13) I dont know if they'll put it in there or not since it was such a tragic death.. All I can say is Rest In Peace, Dean. You were an awesome friend of lots of people, even if you didnt think so. I just wish you would have told me you felt this way, now Ill never get to hang out with you again.

RIP Dean.
1993-2006